13 Nov What 33 Taught Me
**Editors note: This post was supposed to go live on my birthday but I didn’t have time to update with photos. My birthday was 11/09.
It’s my birthday!!!
I’ll never forget on my 33rd birthday a good friend told me that this year was going to be a special year. She went on to explain that Jesus died at the age of 33. I remember thinking, oh shit… dying doesn’t sound fun but then she reminded me that He rose from the dead 3 days later. The message began to fall into place.
This year, I went through so many changes. The theme seemed to be self-discovery. I was determined to be my best self but instead, I found myself depressed and unable to get out of bed most days. On social media it looked like I was living the life! Traveling around the world and working with very successful people. In reality, I was down in the dumps. I isolated myself from all of my friends and committed myself to my bed. I kept thinking about how my friend described your 33rd year of life. She said it would be a year of discovery. Parts of you will die while other parts will be reborn. I got to a point where I realized I couldn’t continue living in a state of depression. Day by day I worked on bettering myself. I decided to quit my position at Fashion Bomb Daily because I felt it no longer served me. I made a decision to step out on faith and quit my full-time job (sorry mom… my last day is Dec 13th) because I realized that I have to do fulfill God’s purpose for me on this earth. As I allowed parts of me die, I allowed other parts of me to be reborn. It was refreshing.
Today I look back at this crazy year and I thank God for every single situation He put me in. I am thankful for the people who didn’t want me to get ahead because they forced me to level up and find my best self. I am thankful for the depression because it showed me where I never want to be. I am thankful for the bad times because it challenged me to see the good in everything. Thirty three was a pivotal year. Had you asked me in January-May what my thoughts were, I would’ve told you this was the worst year ever. If you ask me now, I’d sing a different song.
As I enter my 34th year on this earth, I am proud to do it with a better understanding of who I am. I’m ready to take over the world! Anyway, enough rambling. Ya’ll are really here for the outfit deetz.
Believe it or not, this LBD was purchased from Zara!
The shoes are from NastyGal and my coat is a fun, vintage find I purchased from Etsy.
Makeup SLAYED by Marshalle